"we're all the real housewives of somewhere" (header/subheader in various places, including AO3 profile and Dreamwidth) is also a reference to Psych (S6E9). Hilariously enough neither of these are from my favorite episode, which is "Last Night Gus" (S6E2).
"sweaty balls under desert skies" (header/subheader in various places, including Tumblr and Dreamwidth) is a reference to a misheard lyric in Panic! at the Disco's "LA Devotee," originally as a Youtube comment that was not mine. I just saw it and found it hilarious.
as the love [fills up] our lungs (index) is a line from Neon Jungle's Braveheart. Previous lyrics I've used are: now [the devil] won't leave me alone (Panic! at the Disco's Turn Off The Lights), what [becomes of] curious minds (Taylor Swift's Wonderland), and this is only the greatest story ever told (Panic! at the Disco's Trade Mistakes.)
"in my roaring 20s" (what I often use to describe my age if I don't feel like stating it directly) is a reference to Panic! at the Disco's "Roaring 20s."
and for retired icons:
My neuroticism to be as entirely self-made as possible, combined with my developed hatred of multiword usernames (for myself!) and general avoidance of having an internet pseudonym tied to a specific piece of media, led me to the narcissistic conclusion that the only username I would ever be satisfied with would be some sort of word/name I created myself. Since my first internet pseudonym was a joke (prior to my self-awareness that it was also a play on a slur), yet largely tied to me, I wanted to create a username that had a similar effect: short, bizarre, phonetically simple, in a memorable collection of letters.
It took me a while to come up with this, as you might assume.
And like many other things I make, it represents that I want to create things for myself, and from myself. Though I, like general existence, am not without influence from others, my desires lie in self-indulgence and fulfillment — things that I can feel proud of myself for making, more than anything.
"aroceu" is intentionally in all lowercase letters. I pronounce it as "ə-rō-su."
Of course, I'll reuse themes and ideas if I've tried them once and I know they work well. But even then, I try and slip in something new; I want to learn as much as I can with everything I do, be experimental with multiple styles and crafts. I do my best to experience as much as I can, when it comes to writing, designing — and, okay, life. Repetition and comfort zones are boring; it's much more fun to attempt everything you possibly can.
Beyond experiences, I achieve the most thrill through a challenge. I generally try to do as much as I can on my own; if given a task for a subject I'm passionate about creatively, I'll find a way to make it more difficult, more complex. I'm not learning, enjoying, or really creating until I give myself the highest expectations I can.
Don't worry — as much as this makes me sound like a workaholic, I give up pretty easily. I only become a workaholic when I'm trying to prove something to myself, which explains my bad habit of putting more effort into things I make for myself more than I do for others. You could say that I deserve my frequent self-imposed disappointments, if you really want to.
Writing and coding — including but not limited to webdesign — are very closely intertwined for me, both in how much I'd like to progress and how much I enjoy them. I have studied both academically; guess which one I'm getting a degree for.